Vanakkam Doctor !

I was born an untouchable to start with; hence was a casteless, so called Hindu. Later on I became a Sudhra and currently am a Brahman. I was full of filth and had to be cleansed and washed by a midwife before my parents could even attempt to cling on me; and am still full of filth, guilt, angst, sins, hypocrisy, jealousy and etc. Ever needing a wishful mental, and physical cleansing as well as a detox; here you go, I was born untouchable and physically nowhere 50 years ago and now I am everywhere! The imaginary hierarchy of Varnashram and casteism in Indian and Hindu /Non Hindu psyche in the Indian subcontinent came with the so called Aryan migration around 3500 years ago, along with Vedic civilisation and eventually spread everywhere across the sub-continent, and to the south 1500 years later. Homo sapiens first migrated to the subcontinent 60,000 years ago from Africa; may have from Southern Africa too, via the now submerg...

On a lighter note! Agenda; rules the roost in sapiens life on this planet. It’s obvious; there can be no selfless soul on this planet; none with not even a speck of agenda and that applies to all of us, including me. Interdependence is the rule of life. I provide charity because the act satisfies my ego and that’s the agenda. It’s the same with all charitable activities even if it is done discreetly; is it shameful ? Learning to say “No” is an art too. Never go back on your verdict and rue over it, once it is uttered. The initial suspicion and disbelief will not change even after you change your “No”. Think twice before NO; and none after No; thrice before yes; and none after yes. People change faster than Chameleons and when it cometh to money; lest forgive the poor creatures, we can even out shame them; putting those chameleons to shame in the process. Their attire changes; demeanor changes; I mean the people. Does writing give an impetus to brain? N...

T he way of order -------- ( Kaniyan Poongundranar, Tamil, Puranaanooru, 300-100 BCE This universe is mine! And I belong to everyone Me the good and me the bad Me the pain and me the cure, And I neither am anxious about death nor beseech joyous living As when grieved, we patiently endure; For we deem, This overstated fragile raft of ours, Borne down on waters that lightening procreates with dark thunderous sky Descends and dashes down on rocky boulders Reaches the plain and ocean; This Great life, turbulence and raft Shall all sail destination as ordained by way of order …………… Hence forth   I may say Neither may we marvel at the greatness of the great Nor shall certainly despise the low estate! யாதும் ஊரே யாவரும் கேளிர் தீதும் நன்றும் பிறர்தர வாரா நோதலும் தணிதலும் அவற்றோ ரன்ன சாதலும் புதுவது அன்றே , வாழ்தல் இனிதென மகிழ்ந்தன்றும் இலமே முனிவின் இன்னா தென்றலும் இலமே , மின்னொடு வானம் தண்துளி தலைஇ யானாது ...

Rest you on me. Your family makes a living, killing at sea And you by getting into my body, Because those big warm unnatural bosoms are struggling on the thinnest waist of yours, Rest your waist on me. Your father kills with his huge grizzly net, Nonetheless you kill with your huge eyes cast like a net, As your slender unpredictable waist, thin like a “lightening” struggling with the breast of yours, Rest your waist on me. Your family makes a kill, riding a boat, living at sea However you kill with those long arched eyebrows, And as your slim waist is withering away with those unexposed firm breasts of yours,  Rest you on me. (Silappathigaram, Kaanal vari, Tamil Epic, circa 100-200 CE, Ilango adigal)

என் அப்பா ! நான் அவரை ஒரு பாதுகாப்பு வலை போல பயன்படுத்தினேன் பாதுகாப்பற்ற என்   பாதையை அடைய , என் பிஞ்சு விரல்கள் தடவப்பட்ட போது நிதானமாகக் கவனித்தேன் நான் உண்மையில் பயப்பட ஏதுமில்லை ... ... அவருடன்  தாம்  தொடங்கியது என் கருத்தியல் மற்றும் நம்பிக்கைகள் அண்ணா சாலையில்   இரவு நேர சென்னை சினிமா அரங்குகளிக்கான     கடினமான சைக்கிள் பயணங்களில் .... அவர் முரண்பாடுகள் நிறைந்தவராக இருந்தார் ; தெரியாத மற்றும் கேட்கப்படாத தர்க்கங்கள் .... ஆச்சரியம் இல்லை ;  வாழ்க்கை அவருக்கு கடினமாக இருந்தது ஆனால் அவர் வாழ்க்கையில் தாம்  இருந்தார் .   பெருமை , சுய குழப்பம் , சுய உள்ளடக்கிய தாழ்வு மனப்பான்மை , எளிய பின்புலம் ; அவரது   தந்தையின்அசாதாரண   மரணத்துடன் ஓடிப்போன கல்வி படகுடன்  அவர்   வாழ்க்கையில் தாம்    இருந்தார் நான் அவரை மதித்தேன் , முற்றும் நேசித்தேன் , கிரிக்கெட்டை அவர் அணிந்திருந்தார் அதிகாலையில்   ஆஸ்த...

Stephen Hawking is dead; the greatest living Physicist until yesterday is no more and not the greatest living anymore. Its, Sheer Irony, right? He believed the universe evolves according to well-defined laws; needless to say that includes us humans too. BJP, has lost UP and Bihar Parliament bye- elections. Bravo, the voters! We become manipulative over time, selfish and self-centered;  to be higher; ambitious in the process; judgments clouded by jealousy, insecurity, vulnerability; become  mean ; disgusting , human being; fail to reciprocate even  to our own soul; become soulless; sliver of hope, greedily lost in translation; and we all become too a good actors in due course. Without the so called Dravidian politics or ideology, I shall not, where I am (and countless of us) from Tamil Nadu, as of today. 50 years of regional politics and governance in the south and especially in Tamil Nadu  brought about a massive   ...

Excesses; expectations; complications; jealousy; possessiveness; arrogance; angst; vulnerability; inadequacy; guilt; indulgences; disguise; intelligence; depression; sorrow; maniac; insensitive; choosy; calm; mature; needy; reactive; unfaithful; faithful; noisy; overwhelming; pretentious; genuine; true; fake;  inferior; superior; callous; careful; carelessness; opportunistic; confident; self-pity; calculative; immature; suspicious; cool; uncool; suave; nagging; twisty; selfish; selfless; racist; fanatic; religious; linguistic; naive; idiot; stupid; senseless; aloof; ignorant; innocence; gullible; conservative; liberal; leftist; neutral; rightist; eccentric; DMK; AIADMK; BJP; Congress; paranoia; weird, apprehensive, white- lies, fake, etc. etc. Much has happened since last touched this sheet. Modiji and me-ji have accrued more flying miles; we been to London, Warwick,Birmingham, Grimsby, and alas our 2 nd home town Manchester in England, whilst him trying few mo...